i feel… really sad. it just sucks not being able to hug you even though i really want to right now. its sad thinking that maybe this really is the end and maybe we won’t get back together and maybe we will just stay friends, if we can even maintain staying friends. that this summer i won’t be able to skype you and tell you how much i love you and miss you. and even if i do skype you, i can’t tell you i love you. even if i want to. and i’m scared its gonna really hurt for a really long time because i’m going to miss you so much. i’m scared that we can’t be friends because its going to hurt too much to just be friends with you. i just really feel stupid for letting things get this bad and i wish i could have saved us because really you were my best friend and the only person i felt completely comfortable around and i could be my complete self because i knew you loved me. i just really don’t want to lose that. your love and your friendship. i am just really going to miss you.
“If my love were an ocean,
there would be no more land.
If my love were a desert,
you would see only sand.
If my love were a star-
late at night, only light.
And if my love could grow wings,
I’d be soaring in flight.”—Thirteen Reasons Why, Jay Asher (via fuckyeahliteraryquotes) (via feverheart)